I remember just days after having my daughter and feeling this illogical anxiety that something was going to happen to her…or to us. Like a flood, all of the bad things that have ever happened in the history of the world suddenly consumed my brain.
It wasn’t safe to go outside.
It wasn’t safe to stay inside.
It clearly wasn’t safe to be alive.
Why had I decided to bring this innocent child into a world of suffering? Why not just live my life, be a good person, and wait for my last breath while serving Jesus with all I had?
It seemed every day that global and terrifying news in the media felt closer and closer to my front door. “Why wouldn’t I be raped? Why wouldn’t my husband be killed in a car accident or die of cancer? Why wouldn’t my daughter be somehow kidnapped and sold into human trafficking? It’s happening everywhere.”
This is how the enemy gains ground. I promise you there were times that I almost made a vow to never leave the house and that was the only way we’d be safe. Also, I’d vow to never answer the door because…you know…murderers in disguise as a mail delivery person. I then understood how people could be deathly afraid of the dark, spiders, clowns, etc. None of those were rational thoughts are neither were mine.
I haven’t had those fears in a long time, but it took several months after my daughter was born to get to that point. Recently there have been a lot of terrorist attacks, police brutality against Blacks, stories about child abduction, rape, murder, you name it flooding the news outlets and those fears were starting to creep up again. So how did I stop the anxiety from consuming me?
The Word says that I have a Savior who died so that I can have eternal life…not just life here on Earth.
For this is how God loved the world: He gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life. (John 3:16)
Eternal life means that after I die, I keep on living. Death is unavoidable, so why live in worry thinking “today might be the day”?
Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? (Matthew 6:27)
Worry solves nothing. Meditating on things that can go wrong means that you are adding your faith to the worst case scenario instead of focusing on The Lord. God knew we would face trials, so He reminded us of what to do in order to not be overtaken by them.
Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable–if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things. (Philippians 4:8)
If my Lord was able to die on a cross and be raised from the dead, is there anything He can’t do? Is there anything more important than living with Him in eternity? Is there anything more important that spreading the truth to those who may not be on the path to heaven?
Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age. (Matthew 28:19-20)
These are the types of thoughts I had to meditate on. By renewing my mind daily, I was able to focus on my purpose and calling in life. I know there is danger. I know the enemy is out to get every believer. However, God will always be with me and help me to know what to do to be a world changer and a light in the darkness.
Do not be afraid of those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. (Matthew 10:28A)
I urge you, if you know Him, call out to him when you are afraid. Ask Him what to do, and He will guide you. If you don’t know Him and want to know Him, invite Jesus into your heart right now by praying this prayer:
“Dear God in heaven, I come to you in the name of Jesus. I acknowledge to You that I am a sinner, and I am sorry for my sins and the life that I have lived; I need your forgiveness.
I believe that your only begotten Son Jesus Christ shed His precious blood on the cross at Calvary and died for my sins, and I am now willing to turn from my sin.
You said in Your Holy Word, Romans 10:9 that “If you openly declare that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.”
Right now I confess that Jesus is Lord. I believe that God raised Jesus from the dead. This very moment I accept Jesus Christ as my own personal Savior and according to His Word, right now I am saved.
Thank you Jesus for your unlimited grace which has saved me from my sins. I thank you Jesus that your grace never leads to license, but rather it always leads to repentance. Therefore Lord Jesus transform my life so that I may bring glory and honor to you alone and not to myself.
Thank you Jesus for dying for me and giving me eternal life. AMEN.”
I hope this helped you. If you have any questions, drop a line and let’s start a conversation.
Kytia L’amour is a writer, performer, and photographer spreading God’s love in all art forms. Reaching out to young women and sharing her story is what keeps her heart beating for Christ.
Kytia lives in sunny Los Angeles with her husband and daughter.